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I am MC You Hee-yeol.
I am MC Haha.
I'm the most handsome guy in the universe, Shin Dong-wook.
- He looks like an earl. - An earl?
I'm a bad mom, Lee Soo-Jung.
- She's scary. - Yes.
- She said she's bad. - Maybe she's right.
You'll keep thinking about me. I'm the flower path, Se-jeong.
(Yes!)
She's so pretty.
The courageous have come out to talk.
- Wednesday night. - Busking with words.
- As I Say! - As I Say!
(As I Say)
- The atmosphere is somewhat different today. - Yes.
- Today's guests have different backgrounds. - Yes.
That's right.
- They have different backgrounds. - Yes.
All right. I never expected...
to meet this person again on our show.
He's finally back after six years of hiatus.
This actor is known for his good looks. It's Shin Dong-wook.
(A handsome actor, Shin Dong-wook)
- Long time no see. - First of all,
it's great to see you.
- Well, it's my first TV appearance in six years. - Right.
I took a break for about five years due to my sickness.
- Didn't he become more handsome? - Yes.
Do you know the Ahn Jung-hwan hairband that guys used to wear?
- Yes, I do. - Guys hated it.
That looked awful.
He's the man who used to wear it the most.
- I remember that. - Oh, I've seen the drama.
- What is it? - I used to love watching "War of Money".
- I see. - He said,
- What did he say? - "Everyone!" Do you remember that?
Everyone?
(Reminiscing)
- You sound like Bbaku. - Yes.
"Everyone has three dollars!"
Do you remember that?
I loved that scene very much.
I really wanted to see him act in person.
- In person? - I'm sure...
he will show you later.
"Everyone has at least three dollars in their hearts!"
- Forget about it! - Great.
Soo-Jung, do you remember that line?
I've watched the drama, too.
I didn't realize it was three dollars.
- Actually the line was "a scar in their hearts". - Yes.
I heard he looked himself in the bathroom mirror...
when his hair was wet and thought he looked really handsome.
- That's when he decided to become an actor. - Wow.
Are you serious?
- Is that true? - Please be honest.
What's wrong with that?
(Flustered)
I'm sorry, but are you acting?
Cut!
I want to hear his answer.
What does this mean?
(He's embarrassed.)
Don't you want to talk to us?
I have a deep voice.
You have a great voice.
So even if I make a joke, it's not funny.
Even if I mimic a comedy skit...'
- Which one? - Tell us.
You know things like,
"We won't ask you any questions. Call 2588..."
Can you do it again? I didn't hear him clearly.
I'm sorry, but you don't have to laugh deliberately.
- Well... - It'll become a habit.
It's my first time seeing you, but you laugh too easily.
(You laugh too easily.)
Let's shoot again from the beginning.
It's your first TV show appearance in six years.
How have you been?
In 2010, I was diagnosed with complex regional pain syndrome.
I was really sick for a while.
Complex regional pain syndrome.
It's very unfamiliar to us.
Can you tell us what kind of sickness it is?
It's a sickness that accompanies chronic pain.
I think I'll have to take medication for lifetime.
My everyday life is a lot better now.
I feel pain...
in the lower part of my hand.
- The lower part? - Yes, I couldn't even touch my hand before.
I went through various rehabilitation programs.
So I'm a lot better now.
I'm wearing a glove...
because I feel the pain when it's cold.
- It's very painful. - The pain hits you.
- Yes. - The pain scale of giving birth is seven.
I heard the pain scale of CRPS is 10.
(The pain scale of CRPS is 10.)
Since it's really painful,
I've developed a new habit of gritting my teeth.
To endure the pain?
So my teeth got twisted...
because I gritted so hard.
One of my teeth was even broken.
His tooth was broken.
- I can't imagine. - I can't imagine the level of pain.
- Right. - He was gaining a lot of popularity back then.
He was in so many dramas.
(As a new actor, he was cast in many dramas.)
(An incurable disease struck him all of a sudden.)
I didn't know what to do.
I was working hard,
and I received more love and support than I deserved.
But the sickness struck me all of a sudden.
I'm actually a very positive person.
So now,
I'm happy that I'm able to go on with my everyday life.
His mentality is...
- He's really strong. - really strong.
It seems you haven't been able to work since then.
- What have you been doing? - Well...
I made a promise to my fans that I will make a comeback as if nothing happened,
but my health condition wasn't good enough.
- I was still sick. - Yes.
So I was thinking what I could do and realized...
the only thing I could do was to write.
- I love reading books. - I see.
So what did you write?
- Actually, I'm obsessed with the universe. - What?
Why does it have to be the universe?
I'm obsessed with the universe,
so I read about 150 books that were written about the universe.
- I've been sick for about five years, right? - Yes.
I thought...
- I was drifting during that time. - Drifting?
So I wrote the stories of mine...
- and published a space science fiction. - You did?
Yes, I published a fiction.
What's the title of the book?
The title is "I Write My Space Diary".
"I Write My Space Diary".
He used the word "drifting".
Then did you not interact with anyone around you?
I avoided meeting people...
because...
I didn't want them to console me.
When people console you,
you come to realize that you're in a really bad situation.
That's right.
I was worried that I might become weaker.
- I see. - That's why I didn't meet people.
I'm sure you missed the times...
when you worked as an actor.
I heard you didn't watch TV on purpose. Why?
- When you watch TV, you see many actors, right? - Yes.
I was worried that I might want to act again.
That's why I didn't watch TV.
But the only show I watched was "K-pop Star".
- Wow. - Why?
There are no actors on that show.
- So... - Oh.
That's why I said...
- I'm your fan when I met you. - He said he's my fan.
You taught them in an intellectual way.
- I did? - Yes.
You coached them in an intellectual way.
What you said on the show really impressed me.
- Really? - He loves when people compliment him.
He looks so satisfied.
(He pleases his fans.)
- Really? - Yes.
I'm a huge fan.
Your songs...
- His songs? - are not my type though.
I see. Shin Dong-wook is the most handsome guy in the universe.
Let's give him a big hand for making a comeback.
(Thank you for coming back to us.)
She's Korea's best criminal psychologist.
(Insightful psychological analysis)
(The heroine of "I Want to Know".)
She's Lee Soo-Jung.
(Criminal psychologist Lee Soo-Jung)
I'm sure many of you have seen her...
on "I Want to Know". You don't laugh at all on the show.
That's because I talk about serious crimes on the show.
People who have seen me on the show would think,
"I'm sure that woman lives alone."
"I'm sure she doesn't have family."
"She won't get along with anyone."
People often misunderstand.
Actually, I have a family.
I have a son and a daughter as well.
- You know how to laugh, too. - Of course.
I also act very much like an old lady.
- Yes. - She laughs too easily.
- She is... - I was a little disappointed.
- I know. - She smiled brightly.
- Yes. - You introduced yourself as a bad mom.
Right. I have a 25-year-old daughter,
and I've been working as a criminal psychologist...
since my daughter was young.
I was very much concerned with her safety.
So I didn't let her go out late at night.
I even kept a close watch on whether she chats with people she doesn't know.
I raised my daughter watching her every move.
So it must've been annoying from my daughter's perspective.
You're not an ordinary mom.
You're a criminal psychologist.
- I'm sure her friends were scared of you. - Yes.
When she spots a boy talking to her, she'd go,
"I think I will have to profile him."
"I need to analyze his behavior."
Have you ever met your daughter's boyfriend?
I've never met my daughter's boyfriend,
but I've analyzed a letter he wrote.
Since she is a criminal psychologist, she must've said,
"What a fool."
(What a fool.)
- "Scaredy-cat." - Right.
- Don't you have a son? - I have a son.
- My eldest child is a son. - How do you take care of your son?
I'm totally indifferent with him.
- What? - You shouldn't be like that.
You son must be feeling bad.
My children complain that I preach about gender equality to people all the time,
but actually I'm a complete sexist at home.
They criticize me like that.
It's because you see many criminal cases yourself.
You must be so worried about your children.
How do you use psychology in resolving criminal cases?
I'm so curious how it's used.
In the 2000s, the number of serial crimes...
- drastically increased. - I remember watching TV news about them.
In the case of serial crimes,
criminals tend to have a certain pattern in committing crimes.
Therefore, you can find traces of their patterns on the crime scene.
Do you easily recognize it just by seeing the crime scene?
Not that easy.
- But we try to draw inferences from it. - Well,
the reason she needs it is...
sometimes there's no hard evidence.
- Sometimes we can't find anything. - Meticulous crimes.
Right. In those cases,
we have to find evidence from their statements.
Hearing the criminal,
we often notice that he or she feels very pressured at certain points.
That is very helpful when we design the interrogation.
Can you give some examples to help us understand?
I think the simplest sign is their eye movement.
- Right. - To right or left.
Wait, how do you know that?
Because actors are supposed to keep that in mind.
If your eyes are moved to the right, it means you're imaging something...
or telling a lie. That's what I heard. Is that right?
No, that's not always the case.
But what he said does make sense.
The left and right sides of your brain are responsible for different abilities.
Functions conducted by the right side of your body are...
controlled by your left brain.
If you're trying to tell a lie,
it would require a considerable level of cognitive capacity.
Then it'd be inevitable to reveal your behavioral habits.
Those things are likely to be under the control of your left brain,
which is called the left hemisphere.
When Dong-wook said his opinion, they didn't react like this.
It's totally different.
You sound so intelligent.
She didn't even stop or hesitate.
She was very calm when she talked.
Do you talk like this when you argue with your husband?
- Is it the same? - Yes.
He would never win over her.
He'd just kneel down and say sorry.
Do you think so?
For the last 30 years, I tried my best to reason him out of his obstinacy.
I did everything I could do.
- Is he that stubborn? - Yes.
Rehabilitating a criminal is much easier...
that changing my husband.
(Totally agreeing with her)
My goodness.
Would you mind if I ask...
what your husband's job is?
He is a judicial officer.
Really?
You two could stay up all through the night for an argument.
It could be a talk show about family issues.
- Let's do a show about their everyday life. - It should be fun.
So hasn't your husband changed a bit?
- Some say your spouse can change if you try really hard. - Right.
Years of marriage taught me...
that people never change. The only thing that can be changed is myself.
That's much easier and more comfortable.
- It's amazing. - I'm so touched.
I fell in love with you.
Can I call your first name?
Right now, I want you to give a word of advice...
to my wife who still believes she can change me.
It will help her.
Hello Byul. I'd like to tell you something.
It's a top secret, but I'll tell you that people never change.
(Terse and to the point)
You'd better give up.
Why don't you change yourself?
Actually, I've changed a lot.
Here's a girl who's walking the rosy path these days.
- She's the hottest idol. - So pretty.
It's Kim Se-jeong of gugudan.
(Kim Se-jeong of gugudan)
She always has a smile on her face.
But people like her are actually very tenacious and persistent.
- I know. - I've dreamed of becoming a singer ever since...
- I was an elementary school kid. - You had a strong will.
I listed up about 20 entertainment agencies that...
I really wanted to join.
Where does Antenna Music rank in the list?
I didn't rank the agencies.
But it was in my list.
- It's true. - She didn't rank it.
- I prepared four different types of songs. - Wow.
Pop songs, K-pop songs, upbeat songs, and slow songs.
I wrote down titles of 30 songs to practice.
- I made a list of them to practice. - That would've taken you a lot of time.
Yes. It took me one whole week, and I stayed up all night long to prepare the lists.
- She's very hard-working. - No, I'm not.
Hearing how she has prepared herself for her dream,
I think that if you have a goal you want to achieve,
you should come up with something that only you can do.
I took an exam for the composition course of a music college.
All the test takers gathered in a place and had to compose a song.
- Really? - Is that true?
- Didn't you know that? - No.
- It's weird. - I thought you passed the exam because of your appearance.
- I... - He must be really good with music at least.
He does look like a musician.
He looks like a perfect musician.
The test for the department of composition...
suggests only first two bars of a melody to students.
Based on the given melody,
we are supposed to compose a piece of music with three movements in a sonata form.
(Compose a sonata with 3 movements with the given melody.)
What I did to prepare for the test was exactly like what she did.
- Really? - I had my own strategy.
There are measures like two-four time, three-four time,
four-four time, and six-eight time.
Also there's a list of chords that includes C, D, E, F, and G.
I further broke down the chords.
Then I memorized more than 100 possible number of cases.
(Wow)
You didn't really get it, did you?
- To be honest, I didn't really understand. - Me, neither.
Frankly speaking, I was just waiting for him to end that boring story.
Anyway, I think we should give him a big hand...
for his great effort.
We should respond to his story anyway.
We have to do something.
- He's angry. - I'm sorry.
(Cheering him up)
It shows how much effort...
you need to put in to differentiate yourself from others.
What you told me wasn't in your script, right?
No.
That was the funniest comment you've made so far.
- Thank you. - It's really funny.
She's apparently playing favorites with him.
- She likes whatever he does. - But that was touching.
(Obvious favoritism)
(After a while...)
(Six years of intense pain)
(He couldn't hold back his tears.)
(Also,)
(people are faced with harsh reality on the street.)
(Do you think the victims can...)
(stop crimes?)
(The shocking relationship between horrible crimes and tax)
(The busking will start right now.)
It's time to muster up your courage...
and go to the street where you'll do the busking.
- Right. Today's location for busking is... - Where is it?
Marronnier Park in Daehangno.
It's Marronnier Park.
- Let's stand up. - I won't be talking anymore.
You're really tall!
We need to sit down and then talk.
Buskers will stand up one by one.
- Or they can go in a pair of two. - All right.
Let's go.
- Dong-wook, escort her to the place. - Yes.
This is good.
Escort her carefully so that she won't get lost in the wormhole.
Thank you.
(Hand in hand)
- They look so cool. - It's a totally new concept.
They look so great.
- Be careful. - He has great manners.
It's beyond my expectation.
(A handsome man with good manners)
(Marronnier Park, Daehangno)
Hello.
Finally, we've come out through the door.
We arrived at Marronnier Park in Daehangno.
How do you feel after the teleportation?
- You must be surprised. - It's already dark now!
He's quite bold-faced. I found that...
he really has a nerve.
It's been about six years...
since he met so many people in a shooting site.
How do you feel now?
- I'm not sure if I can do well. - Don't worry.
Once it starts, people like you are really good at speech.
- I'm sure you can do well. - Let's move first.
- Okay. - Good.
Please wait for a minute.
- Thank you. - Nice to meet you.
I think many of Se-jeong's fans are here.
She's an idol.
Now we are at the headquarter.
Right. I think it's time to shout our slogan.
You know what I'm talking about, right?
- Let's shout it out loud together. - Good.
Do we really have one?
We've been practicing it so hard.
Let's go. Kim Se-jeong!
The best and strongest in the universe!
There you go, Soo-Jung!
- As I Say, yes! - As I Say, yes!
Our teamwork is amazing.
(Wonderful teamwork)
You're the first speaker. How do you feel now?
I'm so worried that I'd be too nervous. So I brought my note here.
I'll do my best out there.
The first busker is Kim Se-jeong.
- What are you doing? - Get out there!
What do I do? I'll go!
- You can do it! - Good luck!
It's cold. Will you be okay?
(Crowded)
(People are waiting even before it starts.)
Hello, everyone.
(Loud cheers)
- It's freezing cold, isn't it? - Yes.
You need to bundle up.
She looks like a seasoned reporter with 20 years of experience.
She doesn't sound like a 21-year-old girl.
(She speaks like an experienced entertainer.)
The whole park is packed with people.
(The busking zone in the park is filled with people.)
I feel so nervous.
(Feeling nervous)
Today I'm going to talk about...
"a gloomy child".
A gloomy child means feelings inside me,
which I was able to face but refused to do so.
Or it could be scars and moments I don't want to face.
Now let me start my speech.
(A gloomy child inside Se-jeong)
During the year 2016, I was bombarded with love and support from many people.
(She was one of the top contestants throughout a girl group survival show.)
(She made her official debut.)
(She became Korea's new sweetheart as soon as she debuted.)
(I'll make sure that you will walk the rosy path only.)
People always think of me as a girl with a big smile.
They think I'm a very positive person.
She smiles all the time.
She always has a smile on her face.
She has great energy that brightens up other people.
Of course, there is a negative sides to it.
Some people say the opposite things.
"She pretends to be smiling."
Or they say "She must be hiding something behind that smile."
Those comments have haunted me all the time.
Seeing those comments, I came to recall one of my old memories.
It was when I was a sophomore in high school.
I made a mistake, and my teacher was scolding me.
That was quite serious, and the teacher told me,
"Do you think this is funny?"
"Do you think you haven't done anything wrong? Stop smiling."
I knew I did something wrong.
So I was regretting over my deed.
I said "No, that's not it."
I tried to turn down the corners of my mouth.
But instead, my lips quivered so hard.
I couldn't do that.
I didn't know what expression I should put up.
Because I knew nothing else than smiling.
So I was standing there with a blank look for 30 minutes.
That's when I realized that the only expression I had known was smile.
I was...
born into and raised up by a poor family, to be honest.
My mother had to take care of me and my brother...
under heavy debts.
Did her mother raise her two children all by herself?
I guess so.
We might not have been able to have our own place.
We used to live off our grandfather or aunts.
But later, we were able to...
get a small house on a monthly rent for the first time.
- I was so happy for that. - I know.
I even cried while moving our stuff into the house.
Our family was certainly not well-off.
My mother has led a fierce and tough life in the circumstances.
She worked for a restaurant and delivered milk.
She taught at private institutes and did tutoring.
Over time,
I came to hide and hold back my feelings at an early age.
My mom lived like that.
I thought, "I'm her daughter. I can't give in."
That's why I hid my feelings.
(She had to hold them back.)
That is how the gloomy child was born and became part of me.
But what's very common during adolescence is...
forming a peer group.
There are two ways to form such a group.
The first is sharing your secrets.
The second is...
having discussions on our own...
on how we can improve others.
Do you get what I mean?
- We all did this at least once. - What is it?
- Speaking behind someone's back. - My goodness.
Discussions on ways how they can improve other people?
- Does it mean speaking behind others' back? - Yes.
But I couldn't share my feelings even with my own family.
I didn't know how I can share my secrets.
As I couldn't share my secrets with close friends...
and just clammed up, my friends left me, one by one.
There must be "give and take" in the way you share feelings.
But I wasn't able to do that.
Therefore, I had to spend most of my school years by myself.
It seems she knows how to hide herself.
People say she's nice, but that means...
she is not fully expressing her feelings to others.
She just holds them back.
(She had to learn to hold her feelings back.)
The reason why I bring up this is...
I see a world of difference between then and now.
Clearly, something changed me.
A few days ago, I was in the middle of recording.
I was with a trainer who encouraged me to better express my feelings.
She asked,
"Have you ever felt sorry for whom you love so much, because of your love?"
At that moment, my mom in her 30s came across my mind.
(She thought about how her mother was like in her 30s.)
Though she was still young in her 30s, my mom had a hard time...
because of the heavy pressure of raising her two children.
Later she told me that she even wanted to give up on us at one point.
She told me that when I was about 20 years old.
(Her mother couldn't confess about the burdens until Se-jeong became a grown up.)
I might have been aware of the burdens she was carrying.
But I was so afraid to face it.
So I just looked away, as if I didn't know anything.
But while singing a song, I came to terms with the burdens she had.
Then I cried my eyes out. I didn't know I could be crying like that.
(The gloomy child hidden inside her suddenly came out.)
Until then, I knew that...
it was there, but I didn't want to face it.
To live with a positive mind, I couldn't embrace those sad feelings.
I totally agree with her.
If there's something I don't want to admit, I tend to hide it.
I keep hiding it somewhere and think I get over it.
But it never disappears because it's also a part of me.
It's hard to confront it.
I thought, "I had such a hard time when my family was poor."
"I didn't hate people whom I could've hated back then."
"It wouldn't have been wrong if I had hated them."
I embraced my feelings that way.
Now, I don't easily get embarrassed even if others notice how I feel.
When my mother told me that she loved me, I felt so embarrassed.
I just said, "Me, too."
But for the first time in my life, I told her...
that I love her.
I found that's not embarrassing anymore.
It's because I accepted the child as it is.
How old is she now?
- She might have lied about her age. - She could've done it.
That hair is not bleached.
(A controversy over her hair color?)
I think everyone has his own gloomy child inside him.
I hope you will never...
fear of the gloomy child inside you.
Come up with a solution of your own...
to come to terms with the gloomy child you have.
It's the end of my speech.
(Story on how Se-jeong got over the hardships she went through)
Now you can ask me questions. Feel free to ask anything.
You said you faced and accepted your gloomy child.
After that, you became more honest about expressing your feelings.
Can you please give us a more detailed example about it?
I have to say good bye to the members of I.O.I...
very soon.
At first when I couldn't admit the gloomy child,
I tried to keep some distance from the members.
But after I faced my gloomy child,
I became more honest to them...
and spent more time thinking of the members.
I'll miss them so much. Thinking that...
makes me cry by myself.
You are so beautiful. Can you please sing a song for us?
(We want it!)
Of course I prepared something special for you.
(How lovely.)
(She prepared a song for the people gathered here.)
(Thinking about the members of I.O.I)
(Smiling so happily)
(Getting tearful)
(Don't cry.)
(She suddenly bursts into tears.)
It's so abrupt. See how honest I am with my feelings.
This is what happens when you embrace your gloomy child.
I don't want to separate with them.
(I don't want to say good bye to them.)
I think I need to wrap up.
Thank you for listening today. Thank you.
(An honest story of the youngest busker so far)
She can keep talking.
He keeps mumbling something. He said, "She can keep talking."
(The handsome man never stops mumbling.)
Wow.
(Se-jeong came back to the waiting room.)
Have a seat here.
It's been less than a year since you debuted.
But you experienced so many things during that short period of time.
That's right.
- Can I take a look at what you have in your hand? - This one?
- What's this? - Whenever I feel something, I write down my feelings there.
"I didn't start singing to become rich."
"Don't forget how I feel when I sing."
But the reason I didn't choose Antenna Music is...
I can't be rich if I go to the agency.
Did she write it with lemon juice?
That's funny.
(Only readable with candle light)
The second busker Dong-wook kept saying, "She can keep talking."
Now stop mumbling. It's your turn.
Since I'm going to talk about my disease,
the bad memories of having been sick swept me.
It bashed you up.
The letters were floating in the air.
I had a feeling of nausea.
If you have a pain while giving a speech,
if you have that feeling, please give us a sign.
We have an SOS team.
- We'll be there right away. - Ha Hee-yeol?
- Will you do that? - That's good.
- If you say "He Hee-yeol", we'll go out to help you immediately. - He's very witty.
What are you doing?
Do you want to get out?
- Yes, you may. - Get out there!
- You can do it. - Go for it.
Please give us a sign when it's hard to withstand. We'll help you.
(Dong-wook is going out.)
He must be feeling much more nervous than any other buskers,
- because it's his first time to meet the public in six years. - Yes, that's right.
Even I'm feeling nervous, too.
(He's heading to the crowd.)
Hello.
(Striding toward the busking zone)
(I can't believe it.)
(He's slightly nervous.)
I'm worried about his condition.
That's what I'm worried about.
- Hello. - Hello.
- Well... - I was talking to him looking at his face,
- but seeing him on screen... - He's so handsome.
Yes, it's good to see him on screen.
- He took good care of himself. - Yes.
Look. Even if they have the same hairstyle, they look so different.
(Your face completes the hairstyle.)
He's right.
- I think you all sat down. I'll sit down, too. - Okay.
(It's hard for Dong-wook to begin talking.)
(The citizens are rooting for him.)
- It's been a while, right? - Yes.
It's been a while. Ha Hee-yeol.
Some of you...
may remember me...
or may have forgotten who I am.
Some of you may see me for the first time.
Hello, I was in "Soulmate"...
(We remember.)
and "War of Money". I'm Actor Shin Dong-wook.
(I'm Actor Shin Dong-wook.)
(He greets them for the first time in six years.)
- I'm so nervous. - Good luck!
(Touched)
- I'd like to thank him for choosing our show for his comeback. - I know.
If you know about me a little, you might think,
"What? Isn't he sick?"
Yes.
That's right. I'm sick.
Many people worry about the pain I have to go through.
I have a serious illness.
Have you read the novel called "The Martian"?
Do you know what the first line is?
(The first line of "The Martian"?)
"I'm pretty much done for."
During my military service in 2010,
I was diagnosed with complex regional pain syndrome.
I collapsed,
and when I woke up,
my tooth was broken,
and I was covered in blood.
My arm was broken as well.
I thought my career as an actor would be okay,
but dark clouds were cast over me.
So I couldn't help but think,
"I'm pretty much done for."
Thanks to that, I'm receiving treatments and rehabilitation...
even until now.
You may find it difficult to understand.
I will explain about my illness.
I'm really sensitive to cold weather.
When I'm exposed to cold weather...
You all know what a box cutter is, right?
The pain feels like pulling the blade...
and cutting like this.
It feels as if my hand is being cut by the blade.
(It's a condition in which a person experiences excruciating pain.)
When I was in the military hospital,
from 9am to 5pm,
I had to go around different examination rooms.
They stuck needles in my body all day.
I had to take 16 pills at one time.
Going through rehabilitation programs was so painful.
So I bit into a towel and received the rehabilitation programs.
- Gosh. - Because I was afraid I might scream.
(Dong-wook explains about the symptoms.)
(He stopped talking all of a sudden.)
(Worried)
(His tears drop.)
I'm sorry.
Wipe your tears.
(He's overwhelmed with his emotions.)
He can't...
control his emotions.
- Right. - Gosh.
(The pain he had to go through is unimaginable.)
(You can do it.)
(He starts talking again.)
I developed a habit of gritting my teeth to endure the pain.
So my teeth were twisted,
and one of my teeth was broken.
(One of his teeth was broken.)
Because I gritted so hard.
(Smiling)
I'm a lot better now.
I'm sorry that I cried and smiled again.
I shouldn't do that.
I'm still getting used to the pain I feel every day.
What is Hee-yeol's nickname?
- A handsome boy? - Emotional pervert.
- If Hee-yeol is an emotional pervert, - He found out.
I'm a tormented pervert who enjoys...
enduring the pain.
I didn't want to disappoint people...
with the fact that I was sick.
I also didn't want people to console me.
Everyone I met said,
"How are you feeling?"
"What happened to you?"
It almost became like a greeting.
I'm sorry to say this,
but to me,
consolation was like a black hole that I couldn't get out of.
"I'm done for."
I was overtaken by that thought.
Since then, I drifted for five long years.
(He had drifted for five years.)
I didn't meet anyone.
I didn't call anyone.
I didn't even watch TV...
because I thought I might want to act again if I watched it.
He must've been really lonely.
- It's easy to say it's been five years. - Exactly.
- It's a long time. - Goodness.
(He isolated himself to stay strong.)
That's how I started to drift.
(He drifted as if he was thrown in the space.)
Can you turn the heater on for me, please?
I think his condition isn't very good.
(Dong-wook doesn't look well.)
I think he's feeling the pain in his hand.
What should we do?
(Is he okay?)
- I think someone should hold his mic for him. - Should I go?
Give him a mic stand.
(Worried)
(They turned the heater on for Dong-wook.)
I'm sorry.
- Take it slowly. - Yes.
The goal of our busking today...
is not about doing it well or not.
The goal is to complete the busking.
Dong-wook has to say what he wants and complete the busking.
That's the goal today.
(Dong-wook looks more comfortable now.)
I can only say this now.
I was really lonely.
That extreme loneliness...
made me trust myself.
I don't know about you,
but when something happens to me,
I only focus on how I can solve the problem.
So when I first received the diagnosis, I felt sad for less than five minutes.
I looked for rehabilitation methods, treatment process,
and different cases.
I immediately started to study about the illness.
I thought about how to be cured...
and how I can overcome this illness.
Aerobic exercise is really effective for my condition.
I did stretching for about 40 minutes.
After that, I did aerobic exercise for about an hour.
That was the best I exercise I could do.
After exercising in the morning,
I read books and wrote.
Writing was...
the most creative thing I could do.
I needed to prepare measures for this busking, too.
Just like this.
He wrote notes on the phone. Well done.
I thought...
I have to say what I want even if it's embarrassing...
and that I have to adapt slowly.
I thought, "Dong-wook, it's nothing to be ashamed of."
That's what I thought.
Focusing on how I can overcome my condition...
gave me a ray of hope.
And now I'm able to speak in front of you.
If you have to face a similar situation that I was in,
don't just think you can overcome the situation.
"So what do I have to do next?"
You should ask yourself that question.
When you focus on how you can solve the problem,
you will realize that you don't have enough time to be afraid.
I think the amount of happiness that you lost...
has to exist...
somewhere else.
A huge barrier you face in life...
can be a turning point from another perspective.
Hardship is like an ice block.
I think it will melt away sooner or later.
If you are going through your own hardship,
please put down your regret and hatred for at least a moment.
Even if it's overwhelming, continue to go forward little by little.
Just as I have come here to speak,
despite it being overwhelming at times,
I believe you all can do it, too.
Once I tried,
it seemed like I accepted my situation in five minutes.
But in order for me to stand in front of you all today,
five years of time had to pass for me.
I'm someone who continued to make mistakes...
and made a lot of noise to get here.
With my story,
I really hope....
that you will cheer yourself on...
and overcome your hardships.
I really hope that it will at least help you a little.
Thank you for listening to my long story.
(His busking is complete.)
- That was good. - Yes.
(That was great, Dong-wook.)
In the beginning, you said...
that you didn't meet with people and only focused on your treatment.
As you were getting treatment and rehabilitation,
was there anything else that you did besides that?
I raised a baby.
(A baby?)
I raised a puppy.
Yes.
(I fell for it.)
I'm kind of tired.
I'm not sure if this would be any help to people suffering from this disease,
but I was extremely sensitive to stimulation.
At first, I couldn't even stroke an object because it hurt so much.
But after touching for a while...
This is the scary thing about love.
After touching for a while, I was able to adapt.
So my dog...
seems to have helped treat me.
I think the power of love is incredible.
I'm also a mother of two sons.
I would like to applaud...
stayed strong and overcame such hardships.
I hope that when we hear the name Shin Dong-wook,
you will be seen as an icon of strength and hope.
- Wow! - Wow.
(The best MCs are the people.)
That was so powerful.
I know.
I'm actually in sort of an opposite situation as you, Dong-wook.
I would have suicidal impulses...
countless times a day.
I went to the doctor myself and told him that I don't want to be like this.
I told him I want to admit myself to a mental hospital...
because I wanted a secure environment to be treated.
Once treatment ended, I received vocational training.
I'm not living an active life.
I always tried to find support from others...
because not being understood was so painful for me.
But hearing your story has become a great strength for me.
I hope that, not just people with your disease, but anyone who faces hardship,
will watch this and overcome their hardships. Thank you so much.
(He let it all out there.)
I have nothing to say. You really endured so well.
This is what I think.
When it hurts and gets too difficult, we just want to die.
If you're struggling, get counseling.
If you take medicine, you can feel more secure. Just ask for help.
That's how you were able to endure.
I really want to applaud you.
(We are cheering you on.)
Hardships are like ice. They're bound to melt one day.
So if you are facing hardships, be courageous.
The ice will melt sooner or later.
I'll be cheering you on. Thank you.
- Shin Dong-wook! - That's was cool!
There's a collection box here.
If you swipe your card, you will donate one dollar.
It will be used for a good cause.
Please swipe if you can.
Thank you!
(Thank you.)
It worked out well.
That's so cool.
(Dong-wook made his comeback known.)
Wow!
(Back to the waiting room)
- Icon of overcoming! - He really is the icon of overcoming.
During his busking, there was a critical moment.
I was about to go out there. Why didn't you ask for help?
When I started reading on my own,
I felt like throwing up,
and my head was really hurting.
- But the thing about the people's support... - That's right.
The people's attention became your strength.
There are really so many programs where you could've told your story.
Why us?
There's no other program like this.
It's the most authentic.
(Hee-yeol...)
Rather than just for fun...
I have to say the show is very fun.
It seemed to be the most sincere program...
with Ha Hee-yeol.
Oh my!
(He chose us.)
That's it. I'm now satisfied.
(I'm now satisfied.)
Thank you so much.
We would like to donate his appearance fee to patients like Shin Dong-wook.
Let's give him a hand!
He already told us that he'd like to donate.
There is something I saw while in the army hospital.
Friends who were really sick...
that didn't have enough money couldn't get treated.
They need treatment, but they don't have the money.
I wondered if there was any way I could help.
- So with my appearance fee... - You would like to help.
Is this the next page? Are you on the next chapter?
- Next page? - Yes, I'm on the first page of a new book.
(I'm on the first page of a new book.)
We will continue to cheer on...
- Shin Dong-wook's efforts! - We're cheering for you!
All right, the time now is 8:20pm.
- The last one should really set a fire. - Yes.
How do you feel? Can you tell us?
I'm wondering if this will work.
When you really need help, Shin Dong-wook will go out.
- Stand tall. - I think that should help.
(That sounds good.)
She's already smiling.
She really is consistent.
Professor, what are you doing?
- Get out there! - Yes!
(It's the last busker's turn.)
Wow, she's the last one.
- He's escorting her! - Wow!
(Best manners in the universe)
- He's walking her all the way! - Wow!
That man is seriously...
- Wow! - Thank you.
(His universal manners make the two MCs look like squids.)
- What a gentleman. - He's no joke.
Hello!
Nice to meet you, everyone.
Hello, everyone. The weather is cold.
(Her greeting was enough to gather the audience.)
- I can't figure out what she'll talk about. - Me, neither.
Is she going to talk about CSI?
Do you know what the duty of a citizen is?
- Military service. - Military service.
That's right, and you must also be educated.
You also have to work. Working is also your duty.
Our duty as tax payers.
Duty as tax payers. That's right.
Do you drink lots of coffee?
I bought and drank three beverages including coffee today.
Did you know that 10 percent of that coffee is taxed?
So the tax was about 1 dollar and a half to 2 dollars.
That's the amount of tax I paid when I drank beverages today.
But the problem with the way we pay taxes...
is that we pay these taxes without knowing...
how the taxes are being used.
Of course, we pay the tax because it is our duty and we have to.
But what I want to talk to you about today is...
the rights that you have as someone who pays taxes.
- What? - What?
All of a sudden? This is so unexpected for me.
I thought it would be a talk related to crime.
I have been studying criminology for the past 17 years.
When I began researching criminals,
I asked my school to be sent to the US as an exchange professor.
This was my request.
At the time, I was an observer of the class.
That class was about the criminal justice system in the US.
One day, the professor began to talk about...
the death penalty.
He told us that researchers are allowed to observe the death penalty...
being carried out.
I became very curious about how the US,
who are known for protecting human rights, was operating.
So I thought about it for a few days.
I thought about whether I should go to observe a death penalty being carried out...
or not. I thought a lot about it.
But I was unable to find the courage...
to watch someone breathe their last.
I could not take part in it.
So I told the professor that it's impossible for me to observe a death penalty.
So then the professor...
told me about the homepage of a prison that conducts the death penalty.
He told me that I should be able to find more information there.
So I went to the homepage.
There was so much shocking information that was on there.
All the reasons for why...
the people on death row were sentenced to death...
were written out in great detail.
Also, things like when they were born, how they lived,
and what kind of crimes they committed up until now...
for this person to receive the death penalty were written.
Pictures of the inmates on death row were even posted up.
That's shocking.
I was so surprised.
Even in those days, human rights was...
a very important hot topic in our country.
People said, "Since criminals have human rights as well,"
"our prison systems must treat prisoners with more humanism."
There were lots of these kinds of discussions that were diligently going on.
Making a criminal's information completely public...
seemed inhumane.
I could only think that their human rights were being violated.
This issue of making a criminal's personal information public...
was a really intensely argued issue in Korea.
So I asked the professor,
"Isn't this an excessive violation of criminals' human rights?"
The professor looked at my face for a long time.
He looked back at me with an absurd expression...
and taught me the word "accountability".
The word "accountability"...
meant explain. So it means to explain.
With the goal to explain,
criminals' information is made public on the homepage.
Then who needs all these explanations, and why?
All these systems, from the death penalty and the criminal justice system...
to all the public policies...
are actually for the people who pay taxes.
That's why the precious taxes...
that you all pay every month...
is used to give you a sense of safety.
Explaining how things are working...
is the duty of the government.
Oh.
This is how...
So I thought about it carefully, whether I've ever thought like that before.
I am a citizen who pays her taxes...
to my country's government and institutions.
Are they really protecting my rights?
I really had to ask myself whether I've ever asked that question.
I've always thought that our government or nation...
was just in the role of governing the people.
So I've always simply thought of myself as one to be governed.
Up until now, I paid taxes because I thought of it as my duty.
Because I have been paying my taxes from my salary every month,
the government has to be keeping me safe...
and protecting my rights.
I've been forgetting this all this time I realized.
It made me really reflect...
and think a lot about it.
Not long ago, there was a very frustrating...
and sad incident.
There was a hostage situation that took place in Ansan.
The suspect's name was Kim Sang-Hun.
Actually, Kim Sang-Hun had a common-law wife.
She informed him that she wanted to split up with him.
But this person named Kim Sang-Hun...
rejected the separation...
and continued to stalk her.
Eventually, he got to his wife...
and stabbed her in the thigh with a knife.
She suffered a serious injury.
She then went to the police station.
"I feel like my safety is under threat."
"Please protect me."
She said to them.
They replied, "Go downstairs and file a complaint,"
"then an officer will meet with Kim Sang-Hun."
This is what they said, and they sent her away.
They just thought it was a normal couple fight.
But because Kim Sang-Hun...
continued to threaten her, saying he will kill her,
she took her two daughters to her ex-husband's house while she went into hiding.
Then what do you think happened?
- That must've been really terrifying. - Kim Sang-Hun...
went looking for the daughters.
Oh no!
(Oh no.)
So he made his way to the ex-husband's house.
He broke into their house,
murdered the ex-husband,
and he raped and murdered the younger daughter...
while the older daughter watched.
Then he took the older daughter hostage...
but ended up being arrested.
In this situation also,
the woman went to the police station...
and told them, "I'm really in danger."
"Please do something about Kim Sang-Hun."
If they took it seriously...
and arrested him,
they probably could've prevented the deaths of the daughters.
Do you know how many women are killed in our country every year?
According to the criminal statistics, about 200 women die.
According to the criminal statistics...
Do you know who they're mostly killed by?
Most are murdered by someone they know.
In 2015, there were 98 women who were killed...
by a man who they knew very well or lived with.
With such statistics, the women of our country...
are definitely not clear from the fear of being victims of crimes.
How do I raise Lia?
From the perspective of someone who has a daughter...
(Frustrated)
When we are in danger,
we call 112 and request for help.
In those moments, we expect 112 or 119 to show up right away...
and rescue us like Mazinger Z. We trust them.
When we pay taxes,
we are actually entrusting those public institutions...
to take responsibility for our safety.
We delegate that by paying taxes.
If we didn't believe in our government,
we could just use that money to hire private bodyguards.
But we don't do that.
Because we trust our country and our government,
the people have agreed to bite down...
and take on the tax obligations.
I just received the last tax bill for this year.
The tax bill is in my pocket right now.
Honestly, when I received this tax bill, I pondered quite a lot.
If I pay this tax,
will it really be properly used for the benefit of the people?
It really is a time to doubt these things.
If the things that I need, like my safety and right to life,
are protected by paying this tax,
I will pay the tax.
But if it's not used for the safety of our families,
and if it's used for some other purpose,
we should demonstrate a refusal to pay those taxes.
I realized that this is ultimately the right of the tax payer.
Seriously, to the people...
These days when I offer to buy coffee for the staff, they refuse it.
It's five dollars, but they say they can't take it because of the Kim Young-ran Act.
They expect that much of a high morality from us,
when they...
(It's dangerous. That's enough.)
If you want to know whether your taxes are being properly used,
it's up to you to closely question.
Keeping an eye out is actually our duty.
Will our duties end with the payment of taxes,
or will we watch and observe to make sure that...
it's really being used for the people's safety and right to life.
This is why we can no longer be passive and simply be ruled.
We need to remind ourselves that we can't just sit by.
Average everyday tax payers like you and I...
ultimately have the power to change the future,
so it's incredibly important to care about it.
I would like to leave you with that as we conclude this.
Thank you.
Wow!
(Refreshing)
(He's very moved.)
- Wow! - You must've paid a lot this time.
(It's the anger of an honest tax payer.)
- Hello. - Yes.
I've never thought about tax payers' rights.
There isn't much that...
one citizen can really do,
but if there is something that we can do for tax payers' rights,
what is it that we can really do?
I'll tell you how much power you all have.
There was a case called "Jo Du-sun Case".
In this case,
aside from the discussions regarding severe punishment for the perpetrator,
a key issue discussed was...
the harm that this child victim had to face...
through the criminal procedure itself.
They called her in multiple times to investigate.
That wasn't enough, so she was investigated by the prosecution several more times.
They asked, "What kind of things did that man do to you?"
How terrible it must have been to have to continue talking about something...
that she doesn't even want to remember every time the investigators would call.
This child had to do this.
But even that wasn't enough.
Even in the courtroom, they questioned her.
"Is it true that this man harmed you in that way?"
"Do you want this man to be punished?"
She had to answer such questions.
(The child suffered twice as much through the investigation and trial.)
This makes my heart race.
Many people pointed out that this was not right.
Now there is a one-stop center.
A child or teenager only needs to be investigated once.
It's been changed so that a video recording can replace the victim's statement.
Ultimately, all those systematic changes...
came through the internet.
Such issues are expressed through comments,
and the public opinion is what eventually changes the system.
Same thing with the Gangnam station incident.
Countless women who use such public restrooms...
gathered at Gangnam station.
They rallied to point out that it could happen to any of us.
That's why we are at a point where lots of systems are being changed.
If your comments...
come together like a cloud,
you have more than enough power to change the systems of society.
One of the scariest crimes is...
- a random crime. - Yes.
When a random crime occurs,
- it means that the security is broken. - Right, anyone can become a victim.
In a situation where something like that happens,
what's the right way to handle it?
Do you think a victim of a crime is able to stop the crime?
Could they avoid the crime?
Crimes that occur regardless of how earnestly we live...
can't be avoided by most people.
A rape victim wasn't victimized because she did something wrong.
That's why, ultimately, crime must be...
stopped by the state to whom we pay taxes.
The state and the government...
should predict the kinds of people who may potentially commit random crimes.
And through management systems,
they should create a system that can inhibit crime.
This is something that we really need.
Punishment is not the only thing we need for a safe society.
That's why we really need to be aware whether our taxes are being used properly.
Let's conclude by agreeing to keep both our eyes open and keeping a look out.
Thank you.
(It was a refreshing busking.)
She's a great speaker.
- Wow. - Awesome.
That felt so good.
Wow!
- Well... - We have our right to safety.
- Right. - Those taxes are...
not being used properly, right?
Right. As one of the people,
I did trust it.
- But I feel like that trust has been broken. - Recently?
- Yes. - This is the first time I've gotten so mad listening to a busking.
I kept getting angry.
I got angry as a tax payer.
Please come on again next time and teach us how to reduce taxes.
(Next time, teach us how to reduce taxes.)
(Lee Soo-Jung, the tax expert)
All right. We have just concluded our 10th speech performance.
How much was raised from busking?
- We'll be revealing it now! - That's right.
The first busker, Kim Se-jeong has raised...
Well...
It's 24 dollars!
It's 24 dollars! Wow, that's incredible.
- Wow. - You did really well.
- You raised a lot. - She's incredible.
All right, let's see how much Shin Dong-wook was able to raise.
He returned after six years.
- Six years. - Yes.
I'm sure he raised a huge amount.
He's making a comeback after six years,
and he probably keeps the three dollars in his heart.
Isn't that right?
(Anticipating the collection)
- That's amazing. - Is that a typo?
Amazing.
- It's 92 dollars! - Wow!
This is the cumulative amount.
You're second place all time!
- That's the second highest amount in the history our show. - Thank you.
- Great job. - Lastly, with Lee Soo-jung's busking,
the total amount...
(Drum roll)
is 108 dollars!
(A total of 838 dollars has been raised.)
Wow!
- That is incredible. - We got over 100 dollars though.
All right. To all our viewers, we will do our best next week.
What are you doing?
- Get out there! - Yes!
- Well done, everyone! - Well done.
- Thank you. - Good job, really.
(The "My Way Buskers" return!)
A younger sister telling her older sister to work and bow... This is right.
(Current affairs busker,)
(Yoo Byung-jae)
(Literature, history, and philosophy come with him.)
(Round two of humanities busking,)
(Jo Seung-yeon)
(Also,)
(the former homicide detective,)
(Kim Bok-jun)
(As I Say)
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